I`ve read a comment by mistake today and it summed up my feelings exactly..at least my feelings for the last 3 years..
I’m living because I’m not a quitter.
I don’t live for much. I’m waiting to die and get out of this place. I don’t want to bring anyone else here [so no kids] cause this place sucks. And while I’m here I do my best to make sure I don’t make the place any worse than it already is.
In short, I do my part but have given up on this planet.